I'll be heading

to Selesa Resort for church camp tomorrow and will be back most probably on Monday evening. I'm very excited about it and it's weird cause i never felt so overwhelming excited for camps (not that i'm not excited about the camps i attended before but my excitement for this camp is unusual? lols)

I guess the reasons are

1) i can't wait to spend some good quality time with my church friends.. the chit-chatting till late at night, the crazyness during game time and the snack time!!.. all these.. i can't wait!

2) i'm looking forward to see Rev Ronald Ooi and his team taking over the worship and the children ministry (Yay! that means relaxing time for me and i get to sit down during service focusing & listening to God's word)

3) i wanna hear Rev Ronald preach again! I was really blessed the last time i heard him preached during bcm spiritual emphasis week

4) i wanna be refreshed by the word of God.

5) i wanna be able to hear more from Him.

I believe that God is going to speak greatly to my church and i pray that everybody will go to camp with an open heart expecting to hear from God, prepared to listen to His word and willing to receive God's blessing. I pray that the impact from this camp will last in our heart forever and our desire to serve God will never cease.

bye peeps and do pray for us too ;)

...

api yang membara-bara

About 2 weeks ago

When i stepped into my room at bcm, i found an envelope laying on my desk.

Opened it and inside was a lovely card

with words printed : "you are loved for who you are"

Knew that it was from my guardian angel :)

It was really the sweetest card i ever received so far in my life.. hehe

I remembered well that it was something i needed on that day

I was reminded that no matter how i feel about myself..

i'm loved

by God & family

& oh yeah Guardian Angel!

and

perhaps

you ;P

(who is reading this)

Thank you !!

Do you know?

i can do really silly stuff that made me look stupid.. i embarassed myself so often that i think it'd be best for me to talk less...

i think too much before i wanna say something and because of that i end up saying less...

i secretly wish to have a bit of charisma though i also dislike attention...

(ermm this is rather confusing, i dun get what i want?)

It's one of those moments

when i feel RAWRRRRRRRRR!!

I just hate the soft side of me at this time,
when i feel like shouting at someone or screaming my lungs out, my soft side would tell me "NO"

when i feel like confronting someone and telling that person a piece of my mind, my soft side would tell me "NO"

when i feel like saying "NO" to the things i don't feel like doing, my soft side would tell me "YES"

What's wrong with me??

I just wish i can do what i feel like doing sometimes....

iguessitstimeofthemonthagain

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updates..

I'm done with BCM Day account!! (ermm.. well not entirely done as there're some amendments to be made but i'm glad that i had settled most of it) :) I had student council meeting today at Starbucks (not our usual meeting place) and during meeting when we were discussing about the next student council election, i came to realize that my service in student council is going to end in 2 months time! Wow.. it's almost a year since i joined the council committee.. I know it's weird for me to say this but i think i'm going to miss serving in student council.. yeah.. really :( not that i'm "gangho" to do work or what, i guess it is because i really enjoy working with my friends in the student council.. yeah i admit.. i will miss working with them much..

Just got the BCM Day pictures from TJ yesterday and thought of posting it up here for you peeps to see but the internet here is extremely terribly slow.. So I guess most probably i'll load it in facebook when i get back to Cheras.

It's going to be Friday tomorrow and it always amaze me how each week pass by just like shooting stars. It moves crazy fast and you can't really get a good glimpse of it! oh well... Again this week i was caught up with assignments and student council work, because of that i've neglected the preparation for the mission trip to an orang asli settlement this Saturday. Oh dear.. how bad i feel for not spending enough time praying, reflecting and preparing myself for it when the rest of my teammates are working real hard for it. I'm sorry.. thanks shinwen for taking the challenge in leading worship plus helping me in preparing the songs and teaching the team the songs. I know u'll do fine as i'm very much encouraged by the enthusiasm u have for this mission trip :) i'll fast and pray like u told me to.. haha

So peeps, do pray for us too. Pray that the bible story that Jessy had prepared will touch the hearts of the children. Pray that God will prepare me and shinwen spiritually to lead the orang asli in worshiping Him. Pray that God will help me in leading the kids to the Him as i do the review of the skit, connect them to the need of Christ and lead them to altar call. I really do need a lot of prayers.. and also pray for the adults' sharing by Sis Chan as well!

kla.. i better stop here before this post gets any longer >.<
nite nite peeps!

holding tight

It just struck me that i need to be very strong..
and knowing myself who gets discourage easily and often thought of giving up..
I need to be stronger.. much much stronger

remind- self that no matter what

I must hold on to You

idon'twanttoletgoofYou
PleasemakesureIdon't

Woo-Hoo!

I'm done with what i supposed to finish long long ago! Now i feel like part of my burden had been lifted up..
but
there are still much for me to do.. I still have Christian Ethics to do (which due tonight!), church and law -reading, summary and minutes(due tomorrow), BCM Day account, minutes for camp meeting and letter to Nestle and etc.. Whatever i just mentioned were just part of the things i set as my priorities at this moment. There're more pending work i didn't want to mention here cause it is such a pain to my heart to list it all out.

Oh dear... How i need the Lord to give me the strength to do everything.

at this moment it is like i'm chasing after time and i can't seems to get hold of it.
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i'm still craving for waffles and am tempted to get it right now but conscience is telling me no!!!!!! i noticed how my appetite has been crazy and my craving for sweet stuff is unusual.. again i blame this on Stress.. control yuli, self-control.. remember?

iaccidentlyknockedmyselfonmyheadrealhardatthesideofmydoubledeckerbed..anditsawfullyouch!

e-team!

I stayed up late last night trying to remember all the steps/movements and the "why" song lyrics for the pantomime i'm gonna present tonight for an evangelistic meeting at Hosanna Praise with my BCM friends. It's my first time doing a pantomime.. So yeah.. feeling a bit nervious now.. pray with me ya that i'm able to pull it out well.. pray also that the people would understand the meaning behind this pantomine.. pray that it would touch their heart..
Besides the "Why" song, me and my teammates gonna present a song with sign language as well! do pray for us that everything (including the worship, testimonies, presentations and the message) we had practiced and prepared since last week would turn out fine.. and most importantly pleasing to God!

Below is some pictures we took during practice. Just to let you peeps have a glimpse of what we're gonna do tonight and tomorrow.

HAHA!! Okie.. i better get going with my work..
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oh yeah..
wanna share something here :)
last night when i was sharing during cell about putting God first in my heart.
It hit me that

how easy for me to say "I love God" and "I'm putting Him first, that's why i'm doing whatever i'm doing now for God" and "I gave up everything for Him"

and i wonder

Am i really putting Him first in my heart??

when i truly ponder deep about that...

Working for God full time doesn't mean that I'm putting Him first
Giving up my future to go bible school doesn't mean that God is first in my heart..
I guess i know my heart well enough to know that there're many times i failed to put God first in my heart..

Putting God first is something that i'm still learning and i believe is a life long process..

Teach me O Lord to put You first in my heart..

Again this verse reminded me

Deutoronomy 6:5
Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.

Come to the Father

though your gift is small....

Dear Lord,

There are many times i feel i'm not capable
I feel like i failed You many times..
The insufficiency and inadequacy i felt in myself..
Made me feel so small and unworthy of being where i am now..
But Lord
again You reminded and comforted me with these words:
"It's ok" , "I know" , "just come to me"

How wonderful to be in Your embrace and be loved by You for just the way i am.

Thank you

I finally had

the waffles i've been craving for days..

and it didn't help..



imstillfeelingnotverygood.

I'm reminded

that it has been quite a while i have not heard from You..
I have been looking else where but not You..
I have searched through everything but not You..
Through my search, i have lost what i thought was the desire of my heart..
Everything is meaningless without You..
You reminded me that You're all i need..
Help me to hear Your voice again.
I need You Lord
very much..

...

I'm tired, I've been sick since last Saturday and my nose is driving me crazy. It feels like it would fall off anytime if i sneeze some more >.<

I had a good time shopping with mum just now :)

I feel like sleeping some more.

I still have assignments waiting for me to do

I've been craving for waffles!!

I better get my assignments done before dinner..

i'm not feeling very good...

itchy-ness!

Wanna write a bit here before i head to Greek class.

Weird, due to some allergic reaction, my body started to itch 2 days ago and i don't know what causes it.. Friends were making lots of assumptions about my rashes >.< Well i think it is the crazy hot weather, the heat is making me 'gatal' hehe ;)

You know, i'm really touched how my friends cared and worried for me because of my (not a big deal to me but it itches crazy!) rashes. Thanks a lot and i appreciate very much :)

kla.. should head to class now..
bye peeps!

ps. thanks angeline and dorcas for calling me in the middle of night and smsed me early in the morning to ask me about my condition. i felt so loved ;)

stress??

Me gonna sleep in a bit. This is unusual because it is not my sleeping time yet, usually it'd be much later. I guess finally my body is starting to feel 'tiredness' from the tons of work load which i didn't realise i have so much until this afternoon. I never felt so pressured before and having to accomplish much at the same time. I only felt it this afternoon when out of the sudden, many people came chasing after me asking me about my work progress and work related stuff. I was all stressed up!!

Sigh and yeah.. I react poorly towards stress and easily go out of focus. I believe many of you know that i tend to stare blankly into space with lots of thought caught in my mind (it's a comment about me i heard a lot from people) I guess this is how i respond towards stress. I'm not a multitask-er, when i have lots of work, i need to think how to work things out and it's hard to be relax when i have plenty of pending work waiting for me to do. Along with my personal issues and when everything caught up together, it's kinda difficult for me to stay focus. But i'm trying to stay focus and also learning to deal with it and taking it slowly plus step by step at a time.

Hopefully i will progress well as time goes by. Anyway, i feel that i'm handling stress much better now than before :P (at least i don't procrastinate anymore when i feel stress) I have learned much and of course i still have a lot to learn and there is room for improvement. Through everything, l learned not to dwell too long in discouragement and not to make the same mistake again.

So on the bright side, all these stresses are good for me :) I personally believe that God is shaping and molding me into a different person, a better person. Because before this, i would never imagine that i'm capable of doing what i'm doing now.

Me thinking positively: So, it is a good to feel stress because it is through all these, i become stronger.

And i need to learn to thank God for everything that i'm doing for Him!

(self-remind: no complains! and work joyfully for God's glory!)

...

It has been a year..
When everything seems alright recently..
Out of the sudden,
I felt it this morning.
There are many times i wonder
do you know?

lappy's back

Somehow i managed to survive in BCM for 5 days without my lappy XD I guess must be because i was busy preparing for BCM Day. Again much thanks to friends who kindly lent their laptops to me. I dunno how i can work without their laptops.
thank youuuuuuuuuu!

Finally,

After months of preparation, BCM Day 2009 turned out great and it was a blast yesterday! I admit i was very very very tired (non-stop running around the school compound for the first few hours) but am glad that everything went smoothly just as planned. Much thanks to friends who helped out willingly and sorry if i offended any ;) Though tired, i enjoyed myself :) i'm even more grateful for the wonderful student council committee who i have been working with for the past few months. I have to admit that when i was elected as treasurer for student council, i was kinda upset about it due to the tons of work i was having at that moment but now i'm glad i was elected. If no, i wouldn't develop the bond and friendship i have with the student council committee now. haha though they are weird sometimes (actually most of the time >.<) but they are great people to work with, people with talents and weaknesses but have incredible heart to want to serve God. I have learned much from them :)

You all did great and thank you for everything. It's all for God's glory!!

-Yu Li-