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I'm using Mei Fern's lappy to online now, my very own lappy failed on me during my critical moment when i was preparing for youth sharing last Saturday. Lost my power point and half of the message i had prepared. Incredibly i managed to write out my message again the night before Sunday and very very much thanks to Joanne and Venus who borrowed their lappy to me to do my power point. Sent lappy to fix yesterday and the man told me they need at least FOUR DAYS!!! to get it fixed..

how torturing to wait that long!! How can i live in BCM without my lappy for four days!!
i couldn't do any work without it. I can't work on my assignments, i can't work on BCM day stuff, i can't email and etc..

T.T i want my lappy back!!!

:(

okler.. i shall stop here and return Mei Fern's lappy to her. Ermm i dunno what to do after this >.<

...

She dislike being noticed,

prefers to be unnoticeable in her very own little corner.

She dislike attention,

prefers to be invisible, not known, not interesting.

She dislike being in the crowd,

prefers solitary and quietness.

She dislike sharing her thoughts,

prefers to keep things to herself

She knows she no longer can remain that way and she has been trying to step out from her comfort zone..

now she wonders

"Am i doing ok?"

"Am i still the same old-self?"

genting trip

Went to Genting last Monday with the BCM girls, stayed a night at First World (try to imagine 7 adults squeezing in a small bedroom which meant for only 2 people >.<) HAHA!
I shall update more next time (maybe)
ciao peeps!

Psalm 42

1 As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God.
2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God?
3 My tears have been my food day and night, while men say to me all day long, "Where is your God?"
4 These things I remember as I pour out my soul: how I used to go with the multitude, leading the procession to the house of God, with shouts of joy and thanksgiving among the festive throng.
5 Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and
6 my God. My soul is downcast within me; therefore I will remember you from the land of the Jordan, the heights of Hermon-- from Mount Mizar.
7 Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me.
8 By day the LORD directs his love, at night his song is with me-- a prayer to the God of my life. 9 I say to God my Rock, "Why have you forgotten me? Why must I go about mourning, oppressed by the enemy?"
10 My bones suffer mortal agony as my foes taunt me, saying to me all day long, "Where is your God?"
11 Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.

you know..

I wish there's something i could do about it..

Besides just looking..

5 more days!!

in BCM before the first term for year 2009 ends.

What can i say about it?

So far, it's been a good year for me... I'm able to cope better with assignments, ministry, family and friends..

Perhaps i'm already used to this life style that i have been struggling to cope for the past 2 years?

Or maybe i had accepted it and finally i'm able to let go of what's holding me back.

Whatever it is, i'm grateful that God has walked through it with me..

As break is approaching really soon, i hope to use the time wisely to just re-evaluate my life..

see where I'm going, sort out my feelings and organize my priorities. I feel that I've been taking some things for granted recently.

therefore,

The next 2 weeks, most likely i'll spend my time:
1) Genting (with bcm girls)
2) lotsa visitations!!
3) pending work from church
4) reorganizing things in the children church
5) cleaning my room >.<
6) catching up with friends
7) time with family
8) books (i'm dying to read since ages ago)..
9) Things that i supposed to think about, pray about and decide..
10) listening to Your voice..

*Yes! i'm definitely so so so looking forward to my 2 weeks break from BCM :)I can't wait.. oh it's actually 4 more days now! HAHA*

remember?

He promised rainbow after the storm

*SMILE*

The rain will go away

Love the Lord your God

Love the Lord, your God, with all your heart
With all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength
Love the Lord, your God, with all your heart
With all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength

CHORUS

With all your heart, with all your soul
With all your mind, with all your strength
Love the Lord, your God, with all your heart
With all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength

VERSE 2

I will serve the Lord with all my heart
With all my soul, with all my mind, and with all my strength
I will serve the Lord with all my heart
With all my soul, with all my mind, and with all my strength
___________________________________________________________________

The song above was a random song i was listening to while driving to church from bcm a while ago.
With everything that happened to me and people around me recently..
This song made me asked myself a question.
Am i loving the Lord enough?
This song struck me like an instruction that i need to love the Lord my God with all my heart, my soul, my mind and strength. Most of the time, it is easy to say i love the lord..
But when i truly reflected and pondered about it, I would dare say that i didn't love the Lord enough.
Definitely not when my thoughts are not about the Lord all the time.

I believe when we love God with all our heart..
We will always want to do our best for Him..
We would change, sacrifice, die to ourselves, and would willingly do anything for Him
if we truly love Him.

I guess there's still a lot for me to learn about loving the Lord.

Dear Lord,

Teach me to love you more,
Teach me to know what it means to love you,
Teach me to do what i supposed to do in loving You.
Lord, i want to love you with all my heart, my soul, my mind and strength.

Help me O Lord..
To love you unfailingly,
I love you..

Deuteronomy 6:5
Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.

In Jesus' name
Amen.

friends

Being your friend
we know what you're going through
and
sometimes there's no need for explanation
because
we just know it by the look in your eyes
No matter what, we'll stand with you, support you
and will always pray along with you..

Just remember you have us and the Mighty one above :)

Oh my..

The crazy hot weather is making me sleepy and distracting me from doing my assignments (i know i know i shouldn't blame weather for my laziness) Anyway i'm kind of glad that i'm progressing quite well in my assignments. So i guess taking a short nap is okay?? nah.. (fighting against that thought >.<)

While being distracted or perhaps the more suitable word is "slothful"? i browsed through some of my old photos and the picture below caught my attention

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me and my ex-classmates (i think this picture was taken when we just finished SPM and we were actually celebrating somebody's birthday?? or farewell?? i can't remember >.<)
I miss all of you very much, hardly get to see you all when half of you people are pursuing your studies oversea in becoming engineers and doctors and the rest are in Universities scattered around Malaysia..
It's good to know that you all are doing so well in your studies, keep it up!!
Catch up with everybody soon i hope!!
take care..

my thoughts and prayers with u all always :)

Love,
Yu Li