???

I feel so tired..
Feels like there is a hole in my heart,
Strength, joy, patience, passion, enthusiasm leaking out slowly from my heart..
It seems so difficult to move to the next step.. Can i do it?
Am i doing the right thing for You? I dunno..
So many times i feel like letting it all out but
Is it the right thing to do? I dunno
Many times..
I wish i could stand for myself.. defend myself maybe?
but i dunno if it's the right thing to do?..
I really dunno... How O Lord??

At this moment..
all i want to do is to change my heart..
renew it, let it be refreshed..
let it be filled with fire for You..
I need You...

...

Lord,
I desperately need Your strength
to go on..
Help me to look unto You alone
Help me to depend on You fully
Whenever i feel insufficient and inadequate
Lead me to You..
Teach me serve You with passion and joy
I need You.

Should I?

Lord, I want to...

Lord, I want to be..
Pleasing to You
In everything I do
And I want to love You more,
More than yesterday,
More than words can say,

Cause You gave Your life
You lived and died for me, for me.
You paid the price;

You sacrificed for me, for me.
And now the least that I can do
Is live my life for You

("You Gave" by Jay Stocker)

Psalm 19:14 May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.

Flying Away

Slowly
One by one
flying away
and
i am very..........