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knowing..

Will it turned out differently if i was able to express my thoughts and feelings better. How it would turned out if things were different? better? I dunno.. I guess everything that has happened don't just happened for nothing. There has to be a reason for it and it's for me to learn. Did i learn something? Yeah i did but it's up to me whether i want to do something about it. But doing something about it is another story. (don't want to mention it here.. ermm maybe next time leh). Many times i wish things would be different or just back to how it used to be.. Things that i have missed.. so much.. Did i feel regret? yes i did at times but no point feeling it after everything cause it's all history now. Well looking on the brighter side, what i gained from experiencing it has changed my perception.. I view things a lot whole differently now. I'd would say it's a whole new thing to me though it's painful to go through it. But if i didn't go through it, i wouldn't know... So yeah.. Though it's not easy but i'm glad.. to know..
Thank you for understanding.. It's truly comforting to know.. really.. and appreciate it a lot.. i never know and now i know.. i'll be careful not to make the same mistake again..

Dear Lord, i need you.. really very much.. how i long to hear from you. Help me find what i've lost and bring me back again to that person i used to be. Help me to be even better than before. Remind me O Lord always of your love to me.. help me to remember and long for more and more of it. Show me your way.. direct me to your path.. I wanna see again.. remind me again and again of the reason i'm here. Help me to depend on you and only you alone.. Help me to understand.... Help me to change.. Help me to love myself and know that i'm important.. help me O lord in many more areas in my life.. Help me O Lord...
How i need you badly O Lord everyday in my life..

In Jesus' name
Amen

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Lip-Gloss

Okie.. If you know me.. you'd know it's not my thing to blog about make-ups and beauty stuff (unlike Vivian who is a pro *wink*) But this post here is exceptional because.. as you can see the item above.. It's pretty obvious what it is right? A lip gloss from Fasio :) is a gift from Venus Lim, my beloved bestie since childhood. She gave me this lip gross just right in time because my very own lip gloss is running out. Just the other day i was cracking my head thinking whether to get myself a new lip gloss or just use my mom's one >.< HAHA So it's truly good that now i don't have to get myself a new lip gloss which save lots of my $$$$ or i don't have to use my mom's dull colour lip gross plus not get nagged by mom :P I tried the thing yesterday and i thought it was quite ok. I like the honey beige colour plus a bit of shinning juicy effect after applying it. It's not bad.. I would say it is quite natural. Just dun quite like the thick oily sensation of it when apply on my lip.. So i guess the rating i'd give it is B+ ( just like how Vivian would rate it i guess) Thanks babe for the thing.. really appreciate it :) Well done on your performance.. i guess i'll see your pics on the magazine.. just remember to show it to me.. :)

Today :)

Urggh.. My stomach's bloated after that heavy meal at Nando's with Angeline and Kay Renn >.< but it's definitely one of those very satisfying meals i always enjoyed.. hehe you know me right.. me and food ;P WELL It's always great hanging out with Miss Teh and Miss Nyon.. yeah.. truly and sincerely.. love u two lots :) Hope you enjoy urself too Miss Teh and Miss Nyon..

HAPPY 21ST Birthday Angeline :)

With lotsa love,
yuli
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Ok, i told myself that i must finish half of my assignments for Prison Epistles before Evangelism class starts. Evangelism class is starting tomorrow and i have not done any assignments for Prison Epistles >.< Sigh..
Yu Li, Yu Li.. Why you never learn from your mistakes one? Ish.. i'm going to be stressed again during end of this term and hopefully i wouldn't burned out leh..
Oh yeah.. would like to share something good with you all here.. Some of you might know that i'm involved in my school magazine as business manager.. Some of you might heard me said that i'm stressed and etc because i have not collected enough money for the magazine and the target is 50 k and etc.. Well guess what :) Key Mag 2008 currently collected 48 K which means only 2 K more to go.. Wooo Hoooo ! I'm glad.. really am.. And i'm really grateful to God and seen how great God is in providing :) Again i'm reminded that everything i'm doing is for Him.. Yes! It's all for God not people..

okie.. it's going to be dinner in half an hour time.. going to eat somemore.. >.<
well it's ok i guess since today mom and miss Nyon said i lose a bit of weight :)
ciao peeps :)

Joy

I want to laugh like this lil girl :D

Miss you

Can't help but to feel it
I miss you
really very very much...

That place...

It felt like being on clouds, maybe deep inside the ocean or any place your imagination can bring you. A beautiful place. A place where you feel free, light and you can truly be yourself. Nothing holds you back. All you want to do is just stay there and feel the amazing beauty of it. You would like to explore and discover more of that place and you’d be amazed each time you found something new. Each new discovery leads you to more and you’d never feel tired of searching, looking and appreciating every single thing you found from there because it’s special to you, so precious, so valuable. Never in your mind you thought of letting go. The more you spend your time there, the more you give your heart to it and you don’t mind because you just want to keep on pouring out your love. That place…

Am I there? Bring me there Lord..

Take me to the place Lord
Where there’s nothing else but me and You
Longing for Your presence
I know that You are calling me to You

Here I stand
And long for Your embrace
Nothing else
Could ever take Your place

Come Holy Spirit
Fall in this place
I need more and more of You
Fill me again with the power of Your Spirit
Lord I’m crying out for
More and more of You

Lord I’m crying out for
More and more of You

(Planet Shakers)

This song was playing over and over in my head when I was doing my duty in the library just now.

Second time i posted about this song here :)

"I love the house where you live, O LORD, the place where your glory dwells" (Psalms 26:8)

Free

Lord, set me free
I want to freely open up my heart for You
Let my heart be free from from all pain
Help me to let go freely everything to You
I want to come to You freely
and let nothing hold me back from drawing close to You
Help me to be myself again
A person filled with joy, enthusiasm, passion and love for people
Help me to be a free person again
who holds nothing back from You
I want to be free for You

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I dunno how to react when i heard it, i sensed such strong sorrow flows into my heart... Can't help it.. tears filled my eyes.. I'm truly sorry.. I dunno how are you taking it and wish i could do something.. i dunno how.. i dunno what i supposed to do when i see you tonight..
but
will just be there for you...

craving >.<

Chewy is hungry.. very very hungry and she's craving for

What i did during break from BCM :)

I had a good break last week.. Despite being busy with tons of work.. i managed to find some time out with people i love.. :) i enjoyed and treasured every moments, minutes and seconds of it :)

Top 10 things i enjoyed doing last week..
number one..
1) Time spent with my close friends :)


me and Venus after an extreme make over *grins* we took about an hour to make up for the youth event.. you looked great :)


me and dear lovely blur queen Joanne Ooi :) Hang out with her the whole day last Wed.. ate like crazy with her and Ruben.. Too bad Ruben is not in the pic.. sorry dude.. >.<
Me and Pong(the brain fella) :)I managed to catch up with him before he left to London the day after.. really glad.. take care always ya.. congrats on ur scholarship :)I looked through some of my secondary school pictures and we had one photo exactly the same with this pic except we're in uniforms lar.. me sitting and u standing.. haha.. all the best in ur studies..

Besides hanging out with the dudes above.. there're many more dudes i hang out with :) I enjoyed the night out with Pei Wen, Suu Chei and Phei Yin lots at TGI Fridays.. We ate like nobody's business and it was great.. really... reminds me of the good old days during school times..

number two..
2) The tons of food i ate last week >.< super crazy lots..but very satisfying
McD's, KFC, Kenny Rogers, steak house, hartz buffet, TGI Fridays and etc... There goes all my $$$$$$$$$

number three..
3) watched quite a number of movies and i got lots more movies from Vivian..the movie i enjoyed most was MamaMia :)

number four..
4) I have a feeling that the Children's Camp this year is going to be great :) me working hard on it now with the camp committee.. I'm praying hard that through this camp, kids will be blessed especially the non-believer kids.. Theme this year is "Fiesta" where the kids are fired up for Jesus.. wanna make it big and special for the kids..
Pray with me ya?? :)

number five..
5) i cleaned my room.. it's tidy and neat now.. Mom was very impressed with me

number six
6) I rested and had more than enough sleeps :)

number seven
7) i bought a new dress for only RM 39.90

number eight
8) i have time for myself.. yeah me and me alone in my room :)

number nine
9) i treasured this a lot.. the time i spent reading the word of God...

number ten
10) i managed to spend time with mom at home..
i miss her..

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